Shuffle Synchronicities: Volume 1 - #159
"Kiss Off - 2002 Remastered Version" by Violent Femmes - 06/10/21
"Kiss Off - 2002 Remastered Version" by Violent Femmes
According to Genius.com, “Kiss Off” is the second song on the Violent Femmes' self-titled 1983 debut album. It’s about the narrator’s frustration with the world around him and his own feelings of alienation, loneliness, the emptiness of the world around him, his suicidal depression, his anxieties, etc. Essentially, he is telling his problems and the people in his life who he feels don’t appreciate him enough to ‘kiss off’.”
Something about the bridge:
I take one, one, one 'cause you left me
And two, two, two for my family
And three, three, three for my heartache
And four, four, four for my headaches
And five, five, five for my lonely
And six, six, six for my sorrow
And seven, seven, n-n-n-n-no tomorrow
And eight, eight, I forget what eight was for
But nine, nine, nine for a lost god
And ten, ten, ten, ten for everything, everything, everything, everything
The “I take” to me feels like prescription pills.
And it made me think of a story my friend, a doctor, told me last night when I came to sleep over and babysit his and his partner’s child in the morning.
He mentioned how a patient was in their 90s and stopped taking their Bipolar medicine because they finally realized how to cure themself.
They realized they had internalized years of intergenerational and childhood conflict.
Which I do think is a real thing.
That you can cure mental illness with a flash of insight like that.
Or years of work on it.
I’ve been reading Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life with a friend, and, while I know some find her problematic, there’s a section in which she writes “Whenever we are ill, we need to search our hearts to see who it is we need to forgive. The Course in Miracles says that ‘all dis-ease comes from a state of unforgiveness,’ and that ‘whenever we are ill, we need to look around to see who it is that we need to forgive.’ I would add to that concept that the very person you find it hardest to forgive is the one YOU NEED TO LET OF THE MOST.”
And this was true for me in a major way.
This person according to my doctor friend said they needed to forgive people in their parents’ generation for things related to the Holocaust and more.
My friend didn’t seem to think they were crazy without their Bipolar meds or for believing she had cured herself.
In related news, I’m down from 2.5 milligrams of Risperidone to 1.25, with my new psychiatrist, and feeling great.
Every time I visit my friend, he tells me colorful stories about his patients (always protecting their HIPPA rights), and he said last night that his colleagues always remark that his patients tell him things they don’t tell them.
I think that means he’s a good doctor.
Lastly, there’s a line sung by Gordon Gano above “But nine, nine, nine for a lost god,” which made me think of the daily emails Friar Richard Rohr sends out. Today’s was on non-binaryness in Christianity, with a great quote to start:
So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith…There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. (Galatians 3:26–28)
If you’re interested in integrating faith with progressivism and want another source besides me, follow this link to sign up for his daily meditations (and also feel free, to like me, right now, substitute Christ out for whatever you ‘name’ the Higher Power).
Okay, that’s the one hundred and fifty-ninth Shuffle Synchronicities.