Shuffle Synchronicities: Volume 1.5 - #383
“Don’t Rat Out Your Friends” by Orchid - 06/06/22
I received a notification today from Facebook:
I clicked on it and it said:
The latter part ‘needed to be completed’.
Which got me thinking about my working relationship with this Substack recently.
Or lack thereof, LOL.
I’ve delayed mentioning certain aspects of my life for the last five posts or more.
And ever since the end of the 365 daily posts, I’ve learned how consent from others I write about might be more necessary than I thought when I started.
So am I open with service changes?
Temporarily closed?
Operating as usual?
I still don’t know, LOL.
I have a guest post collaboration with Con/Jur/D completed but it involves details about my life that I want to keep undisclosed until I finish a process, which becomes part of the subject of it.
It also includes moments with a person in my life who has pointed out to me:
And another moment with another person in my life that’s similar.
To that second person, and in a way the first, I’ve promised to try not to write about them for a while.
A song came on right before to help me decide that:
“Don’t Rat Out Your Friends” by Orchid
(I’m realizing now that this second person particularly likes orchids, LOL).
It was followed by this song after I let them know and they seemed relieved:
“Limitless Love” by Beautiful Chorus
(Beautiful Chorus came up in terms of the first person from a post in May).
This meme then later came up on the Instagram shuffle.
At the time I was listening to a class by my Enneagram teacher Russ Hudson about the Harmonics.
Within the 2, 9, 7 Harmonic:
2s are other focused and so people they’re in a relationship with can get mad at them for not taking care of their own needs instead of trying to much to take of others’.
7s, like me, can be selfish and prioritize their own needs too much over others they are in a relationship with.
9s can be neither too selfish nor too unselfish, but sometimes still both not take care of enough of their own underlying needs or those they are in relationship with.
But, back to selfish me as a 7, I started to wonder what would it be like if I released this freedom I felt I needed to write about anything or anyone however I want.
7s fear a lack of freedom, though others do of course, too, but, this is a particular emphasis or fixation of 7s.
So I guess for a while now I’ve been thinking something like:
What would happen if I thought of the other people I trap in emotional pain by believing I was trapped in emotional pain if I couldn’t write freely about them?
Do I need to take care of others in order to be taken care of myself?
Would I receive limitless love in return for giving people the limits of their boundaries?
Maybe?
I still dunno, LOL.
But I did read something from Marianne Williamson’s A Return To Love last night who wrote:
“The Holy Spirit is a force of consciousness within us that ‘delivers us from Hell,’ or fear, whenever we consciously ask Him to, working with us on the Causal level, transforming our thoughts from fear to love. We cannot call on him in vain. Having been created by God, He’s built into the computer. He comes to us in many forms, from a conversation with a friend to a serious spiritual path; from a lyric in a song to an excellent therapist. He is the inexorable drive toward wholeness that exists within, no matter how disoriented or crazy we get. Something within us always longs to go home, and He is that something…His correction of our perception is called the Atonement.”
So maybe my perception is being ‘corrected’ for now, LOL.
I feel quite OK stripping more details from my memoiristic writing today than usual.
And I feel quite a lot better in my relationships.1
I shuffle just now and get:
“Hesitation Theme and Variation Blues” by Marisa Anderson
It’s a 2:22 long instrumental.
And it reminds me to hesitate sometimes instead of impulsively publish, to write variations instead of directly, perhaps then I can turn more blues into yellows ;)
This song came on my On Repeat Shuffle and I’m repeating it and not even more more haha…it’s a beautiful sample/update of Bob Marley’s “Redemption Song”:
“x10” by Koffee
Thank God it didn't get ugly
Thank God for keepin' and lovin' me
Mama you'd kiss and you'd hug on me
Said no matter what I did you'd be proud of me, yeah
That meant a lot to me, yeah
This was your prophecy, yeah
And now they all can see
Pray they always see the God in me
I go woah, yeah
I'm glad I woke up today, yeah, yeah, hey
Just as I woke up, I said, yeah
Couple prayers fi mi family, my friends, ah whoa, yeah
Thank you, Father for blessin' me times ten, yeah, ayy, yeah
(Redemption songs
Redemption songs)
And I IG shuffle and get:
Okay, that’s the three hundred and eighty-third Shuffle Synchronicities.
Both people read and consented to this piece ;)